love, love, love

If you leave Elvis outside by himself, he always ends up here.

We finished Bella’s headstone. And I have finished the photobook I was making in memory of her. I am ordering it tonight. I hope it turns out good.

This has became my new favorite breakfast. And its not too bad for ya either.

Baked my hubs his favorite… strawberry with chocolate icing.

She gave me some good memories

For those of you who do not know, Bella passed away on Monday. I am sure everyone thinks their cat is the best… but in Bella’s case she really was remarkable. She made everyone love her, by loving them first. She would instantly purr when you looked at her and would rub on you until you took the time to pet her. She loved to play. She would fetch her ball every single time you threw it, and she never allowed you to untie your shoes without her help. She loved to make Elvis chase her, and she would sit on top of his water bowl and watch him drink and play with his ears. We called her Bella Smella because of the horrible gas she had when she was a kitten, but she actually became our smell detector. She would try to bury anything stinky or anything that smelt like food. She even tried to bury her food bowl. After going to the litter box, she would stick her head out and scratch at the tile floor to pull in pretend dirt to bury her mess. Mostly, she just loved to be with you. She would sit on the bath tub as you brushed your teeth and follow you from room to room as you cleaned. She would allow you to pick her up and lay her on her back like a baby and pet her belly. If you needed to be somewhere the next morning, you couldn’t let her sleep in the room with you. She would wake you up in the middle of the night by laying on your chest and purring as loud as she could. I am positive I will never know another cat quite like Bella Smella. She will always have a piece of my heart. May she rest in peace.

Yikes!

Gotta say.. I love these tights!

ladyofleisuredc asked: Hugs. just hugs.
plenty of love to you and beautiful Bella.

Your friends in MD.

Thank you. I appreciate all your kindness.

Since Bella has been doing so good after getting the steroid shot, we decided to call the vet. We told him about her progress and he seemed hopeful. He said it sounded like the steroid shot had shrunk the tumor a bit, and we could keep giving her the shots. There is a chance the tumor could get small enough to remove. However, there is also a chance she could become immune to the steroid.

We are just taking it one day at a time. Everyday that she is herself is a blessing. Thank you all for your prayers, keep it up. Hopefully we can get this tumor out!

Bella Upate:

The steroid shot has helped her so much. She purred basically all day yesterday, and around dinner time last night she was following me around the house. She played with my shoe laces and rubbed on my legs as I cooked dinner. Her breathing seems to have returned to normal and her pupils are the same size again. We know it won’t stay this good forever, but for now we have our little Bella back.

She woke me up at 2 am munching away and then I could hear her in her litter box. I didn’t mind one bit to be woken up by her. I was just glad she was eating.

This morning she was at the foot of the bed. As soon as I turned my lamp on she started purring. She followed me into the closet and rubbed on my legs and purred some more. I filled her feeding bowl and she was munching again when I left for work. If it were up to me, I would be home with her still. But I have to pay those vet bills, so I have to earn that money.

Thank you all for your kind words and your prayers. God has granted us a miracle by giving us our Bella back even if its for a short time. Keep praying!

By now, you all know about Bella. She is one of the loves of my life. She came into our life as a stray. She was only 1 lb and was so sick. Even when she was that sick, she purred and rubbed her head on you. She was just so happy to find someone to love.

I took her in, I took care of her. She slept in my arms as a baby would and any time she would awake she would purr louder than a full grown cat. You could hear her purr across the house. She really is the most wonderful cat.

She fetches her toys no matter how many times you throw them, and she starts purring as soon as you walk into the room. She is just happy to be with you. She will follow you from room to room, and she will sit on the sink and watch you brush your teeth. I have never loved an animal as much as I love her.

Yesterday when I got up I noticed she was breathing funny. It seemed to take all her energy just to breathe. I thought I may be imagining things so I tried playing with her but all she wanted to do was lay there. So, I got out the catnip. Usually she’d be on top of me before I even got it open… she didn’t care about it.

We took her to the vet where they did xrays and tests. The doctor came back with her and said “It’s not good”. She has feline leukemia and a tumor has grown in her chest and is pressing against her lungs. He said we will, in the end, have to put her down, not today, but shortly. She will eventually stop eating and reacting to us. He cannot operate on the tumor because of where it is located. He said in some cases they can give them a steroid shot and help shrink the tumor and it can give the cat more time. Even with the tumor gone, she would still die of the leukemia. We took the shot and went home.

I cried all day yesterday. I feel like there is a hole in my chest. I didn’t tell anyone about it all day. I couldn’t say it out loud. Last night, my mom called and I finally uttered the words. There is nothing we can do but keep her comfortable and try to be with her as much as possible. I keep praying for a miracle.

She’s doing better today. She laid in bed with me for hours this morning, she purred a lot… it was so good to hear her purr. Maybe the steroid has helped a little. I would do anything to help her… to make her okay… It hurts so bad that I can’t help her.

All I ask is that everyone keeps praying for that miracle.